So much to say....never enough time to say it...

So.... again here I am. After not writing in a while... I'm trying to get back into it. Story.of.my.life! haha
It was my sister Ashleigh's wedding last saturday.... and what a joyous occasion! I wanted to write about it right after but I've kinda been a bit sleep deprived.... and finally on Thursday I've gotten to it. I like to ramble.... and compare on things and make special notes probably nobody else would ever think about. Totally me... because I find things fascinating.... and I guess I kinda did that after the weekend. Just pondering things.... being my normal random self. So here goes my musings.....
 Its great because as much as me and Ash seem to follow each other around through life... I looked at her wedding pics and then looked back at my own and realized (though not suprisingly) our weddings were very different. Both were simple and elegant.... but in different ways. And when looking at the two.... I realized that we both either had things the same or a bit different from when we dreamed about our 'big' days when we were young girls. I always wanted a spring wedding.... and ended up having it in late spring. She's always dreamed of a fall wedding with all the pretty colours.... and got it just at the end when the leaves have almost come off the trees. How very cool and interesting!
After such a time of weirdness over these past months.... I found myself getting eager for their wedding. I feel so strange though.... I wish I could be more excitable! Maybe not all the time.... but in the moments where it counts the most. As much as I was looking forward to their wedding.... I had a hard time showing my emotions and feelings .... as most girls would. I started feeling guilty...because i didn't want to seem like debbie downer....but then i remembered my own wedding and even other special events in my own life. On my wedding day, though, I  didn't show as much excitement as I always thought I would. It didn't mean I wasn't feeling it or thinking about it.... because I was ecstatic inside! I'm just like that though.... whenever it counts..... I never seem to let myself throw caution to the wind and scream at the top of my lungs that THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER!!!!!  haha    If only I could. I just need to stop caring so much about what people might think and just be who God created me to be!
Now that I've gone on another bunny trail.... I will move on to back to musings on the wedding! So after all the prep hub bub, ceremony, pics, and dinner..... it was finally time for speeches and dessert. Well.... I totally hadn't prepared a speech.... but i got up there and said what came off the top of my mind . Afterwards though....when others had gone.... i thought of more and more stuff i really had wanted to say.... and it bugged me because i just wanted to go up there and spill my heart for longer than the 5 minutes alotted time.
So here's my speech.... this is whats on my heart. This is the version that i didn't have time to say, couldn't say to random people, or forgot to say. And i figured this is the best place to post it anyways since Ash is the only one who reads my blogs. haha

My Speech for Ash & Jake (the long version)

blah...blah...blah (stuff i said at the reception. can't remember it... so its just gonna be blah! thats all good though)

Its funny to think....when me and Ash were little girls (and then grown into our teens) we often would dream, talk, and imagine what our future husbands would be like. Ash of course was more boy crazy than I ...so she would make long lists and me....well... I seemed to be stuck on one particular guy that i had liked FOREVER!!! But here we are...married to men that we never even imagined in our wildest dreams! Mine ended up not being the one guy that I had imagined and yet he is the one I needed and far exceeds what i settled on in my mind! And Ash....she met a guy who is finally someone she could imagine....since her long lists seemed to be more out of indecisiveness due to maybe the fact that the man she dreamed about was always faceless. Two opposite dreams. Yet both fulfilled in the opposite ways dreamed and somewhat similar in their crossings. How Great God is to have all these things written for us in our Love Stories! And its just the beginning.....
When Ash had her accident....my world felt shattered! The night of the accident .... I kept thinking of the what ifs and asking God all these questions! Because she was so close to dying....my mind was racing to thinking of the future. Would I never get to see her again? Would she still be the same wonderful big sister I truly cherished? What if she never got to see me get married or have nieces and nephews? What if I never got to stand up for HER big day? Or see my own nieces & nephews from her? When so often we had talked and dreamed about how cool it would be to have little girls the same age who would be best friends like us!
All these thing I finally realized I needed to give to God. And in that moment I did the hardest thing that anyone could do.... I gave her into God's hands and said whatever the outcome.... I would still glorify Him for its His plans for her!
I look now today.... and think how AMAZING God is! That night I didn't think I would get to see this day! And it happened. Praise God!!!
And I see you two...and how happy you are.... and how far it took to get here... it really is cool! Because I a lot of nights talking with Ash when she was sure she liked Jake and others when she wasn't sure if he liked her. Finally... i told her that she had to quit dwelling on this! If you like him....just like him! And stop doubting yourself! He is perfect for you.... and if it is meant to be then God will orchestrate it!
And He did! And will continue doing so in many more aspects of your married lives together!
Congrats guys! I love you both and wish you many more exciting married moments to come!
Remember Ash.... My Wish....by Rascal Flatts! :)

Also....haha I wanted to sing the song "Sisters" off of White Christmas.... but I know you'll feel it in your heart! :P
Much Love!

....Going Down Memory Lane....

Elementary School. Ahhhh..... the good ole' days! Not a care in the world. When the biggest problem was whether or not you were popular and trying not to fall into peer pressure! Not that I would like to go back to that time and do everything over....but there are some days when you just can't help it!
Well today was one of those days. Since I've moved and now have a new last name and ring on my finger to prove it...I've slowly been grabbing the million boxes I had stashed away in my parents attic. And when I say slowly.... I.Mean.Slo....w....ly! haha And even after I grab them.....they still sit in my livingroom....waiting to be opened (ANd in the same place as those thankyou cards i still have not finished writing! :S arrrrrrghh!) So....today I'm sitting here watching Celtic Woman and waiting for Nate to wake up so we can get some much needed groceries and then I decide to go looking for some books that I seem to be missing. Well en route.... I find the box with all my old school notepads and I think to myself, with a smirk, "Well this should be interesting!" And off i go..... opening old file folders filled with journals, stories, assignments (most that weren't finished! :S), tests and information from classes. I started reading stories that I wrote while I was in kindergarten and beyond.... and I must say.... they were quite comical! But then I arrived to one I had started when I was nine.... and as I was reading I thought, " Hokie smokes! I was nine when I wrote this?" Mind you....it was corny....put the plot, idea and wording felt like I was way beyond my nine years. Or at least it sounded like I should have been a 13/14 who had just been reading to many Mandie books! haha! Anyways.....I then read the ones I wrote in gr. 7+8 and I actually felt tears well up. I mean....not like my stories were anything well versed....but I just got this feeling that I wished I could go back and be able to write like that again. When I was that age.... I had sooooo many stories and so much imagination going through my mind that I felt like it would explode. Now a days..... if someone could see my brain it would like one of those lame little fireworks going off in my mind with the lack of imagination. Oh to be that age again. Or at least be able to sit down and have seemingly endless plot lines just bounce into my brain!

And then my journals. The ones I had to write for school....Man! There were some that brought a chuckle to my mouths, some that made me remember moments in time, and others that brought tears to my mind. But in most of them.... I found a commonality. Most I wrote about Ashleigh. Man.... i really looked up to her... and was super close with her back then. Like, I literally had about 10 journals that I wrote in gr. 8 that mentioned her and 4 that were basically about her. And these were just ones that I wrote and were marked on for school.
It sure is craziness!!!! But after all this musing I kinda feel like writing a story. I've always wanted to start one and actually finish it but never have! Crazy!!! I'm such a procrastinator....
ANnnnnd speaking of that.....I better get going and stop my ultimate procrastination! Blech!

For now....This is Mel .....signing off!

Back into the groove of things...

Well hello..... no time, no talk. Life is....well uncharicteristacally hectic in every single way yet I suppose that is the norm. Well for starters....I just got married almost two months ago....and my husband is absolutely wonderful. Marriage is so wonderful....yet I can see how much hard work it is! Just when you think things are going smoothly.....WAHBAM!!!! It gets crazy....as two people who've come from completely two different families and ways of life are trying to get used to living together and being one with each other.

So....since life is super amazing and crazy busy....I figured it might be good to continue just writing my feelings. I haven't touched my diary since two years ago..... and as much as that is something that I would like to get into again....I think this is a bit easier for now. Typing..... that is.....I can be long winded so that means writing can only be so much longer! haha That must mean I am still a Winder at heart even though I am now a Wright.....when i can't write....lol. Yup...that was way to corny.


But all corniness aside.... I am really wanting to get back into this..... so hopefully my excitement for it continues to bubble over into the days that follow.

But for now.... I will leave it at that! Goodnite blogging world!!! I probably won't have many reads but who cares really!!! :)